To Harper

Oct. 29th, 2024 08:18 pm
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It's coming up on my anniversary with Harper and I am having Feelings. I have been undergoing therapy for a while now and my therapist suggested I might consider journaling about my emotions. I feel like DW is a good medium, since I can type out what I'm feeling, but without the pressures of posting on FB or Bluesky.

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I've noticed that over the past few weeks I've been spending much less time on Discord, Reddit, Facebook, Twitter, Masto and Bluesky than I used to. Part of it is because I've been busy at work and at home organizing and sorting, but I also wonder if I'm feeling kind of burnt out on social media in general.
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This has been a very hard diary for me to write.

Harper passed away on February 18th this year after an extremely sudden illness, with a prognosis for extremely poor quality of life and a lot of pain and suffering. The decision not to subject her to further pain and suffering was not one I made lightly. I remembered all the things that had happened while we were together.

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Here’s something that she shared with me last Halloween:

I think I've figured out why the Peanuts story of the Great Pumpkin has always deeply appealed to me. I like pumpkins, so that ticks one box, and I love Peanuts, so that's another. When I was a child, every year around this time the Peanuts HalloweenTV special--with its jaunty Vince Garaldi theme music--stirred my little kid's heart with the joy, the color, and the inherent theatricality and drama of fall.

Now, the story of the Great Pumpkin is a bit of irreverent, irreligious cheek on Schultz's part that thrills me as an adult. Here, religion for once is playful. Here, the Great Pumpkin doesn't require gruesome sacrifices or recitations of docile fealty from the Peanuts gang; they just hang out in the Pumpkin patch in the moonlight and wait for him or her (or Eir) to appear and edify them with his resplendent pumkininess. They're into it because it's fun, it's silly--a little scary--and if Linus is right this time, potentially amazing. What more could a kid ask for?

The gang's yearly Great Pumpkin ritual is funny and sweet and wistful. The wistfulness of Linus's Pumpkin worship is allegorical of the human desire for something magic to show itself and deliver us from the mundane round of squawking teachers and factory bosses of everyday life. Like Springsteen's sublime image in Born to Run of Mary's dress, waving as she stands on the porch waiting for "a hero to rise from these streets"--as a *boy's* hero of the night, the Great Pumpkin is another kind of enchantment, a potent magic that's risen from the imagination of a precocious, melancholic 4th grader. It is a religion gladness, of togetherness and goodwill, with its own kind of in interpid faith, because the Peanuts gang never gives up on the Great Pumpkin. This is the religion of childhood, which, of course, is imagination itself.


If you would like to share your own remembrances of Harper, feel free to in the comments. Please keep it civil though.

Australia!

Jan. 2nd, 2023 09:29 pm
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I was in Australia last month for a family reunion - I hadn't seen my family in 5 years and some of my cousins in 10 years!! It was a huge blast and I had a lot of fun.

I uploaded some photos to Flickr, although they're not the best organized.  
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And they have been some of the happiest years of my life.

I'm so grateful that I met Harper in 2015 after I moved to Sacramento in 2014, and then became friends with her. She had a major health scare and had to be in hospital for quite a while followed by a long period of physical therapy, but her friend Elizabeth and I continued to visit her and reassure her that she wasn't alone.

I invited her to live with me as a housemate in 2019. It was a new and at times uncertain experience for both of us as we'd lived by ourselves for so long, but we figured out what worked best for each other and ourselves and got to know each other better. One thing led to another and by the beginning of 2020 we'd definitely started to be more than just friends.

And then Covid happened.

Covid upended a lot of things, but it also brought us closer. I was working from home, so I was at home every day and went out much less often than I had previously. We spent a lot more time together and watched TV shows like Midsomer Murders. I played the piano for her and she told me how much she liked my playing.

We were together for both good - the 2020 Presidential election, the Covid vaccines - and bad - Elizabeth's sudden death from a malignant brain tumor 3 weeks before her 63rd birthday, Harper falling ill and having to undergo physical therapy - and I have drawn closer to her and been more comfortable sharing more about myself with her.

Harper, I love you so very much and I am so blessed that you are my partner. This year is the first Christmas that I won't be there with you physically (being in Australia at the moment after meeting my family and cousins for the first time in a long time), but you are and will be always in my heart.
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 So, I've been neglecting this journal in favor of being active on Facebook, Twitter and to a lesser extent Instagram. But Facebook isn't what it used to be and Twitter is, well... *screams in eldritch horror*

I'm thinking I might still use Facebook for quick updates, and maybe sign up for Mastodon (if I can find an instance that I like - a friend of mine is thinking of starting her own instance named "<dog> fan club"), but do long-form musings or random stuff here.

Hello DW

Apr. 28th, 2017 10:19 pm
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I'm here! Figuring out what I want to do with my LJ - it's still around, but (a) I haven't posted much and (b) I think it might be time to move on from there.
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Quick post - I'm just about done packing and will start driving to San Francisco in about an hour and a half (with a stop for breakfast at Shari's).

It's a fairly short trip - about 10 days (excluding the 2 days that I "lose" when flying there), but I'm looking forward to seeing my family again, and meeting up with friends.
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Today is the 3 month anniversary of my moving to Folsom and starting a new job at Intel. The work atmosphere is interesting and challenging in the right ways, and I get along quite well with my colleagues. I'm also slowly exploring more of Folsom and Sacramento and figuring out what artistic activities there are - I've already seen a few plays, including AND THEN THERE WERE NONE by Agatha Christie, which I liked greatly - I have a weakness for her stories.

I also went to the Dickens Fair in San Francisco a few weekends ago, and words can't describe how wondrous an experience it was - the closest I can come to is that it was like being in an 1830s cosplay where everyone was completely immersed in the experience!

Some photos of the trip

Since then, I've also gone to Houston to watch several of my friends perform in two ragtime concerts and I have some photos on my Flickr as well.

Other than that, things are going along fairly well. I'm missing Seattle, still, but at the same time this is also an opportunity for me to explore new places, make new experiences and meet new friends!
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There isn't an easy way to say this, and I don't feel like beating around the bush.

I was one of the people laid off last Thursday from Microsoft. It was a huge shock and, honestly, something neither me nor my boss had seen coming.

I have a LOT of friends who have offered support, links to recruiters at other companies (apparently Amazon is hiring like crazy) and a shoulder to lean/cry on. To all my friends, THANK YOU.

There are also some resources (severance package, help with resume reviews and so on) which were provided, which is nice.

For now, back to updating (basically re-writing) my resume and sending it out.

Still Alive

Jul. 7th, 2014 09:58 pm
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No, not the song from Portal. But... it's good to have (or rediscover that you have) a semi-private space sometimes, where you don't have to worry about whether something you post gets enough 'likes' or 'comments'.

It's been a while since I've posted (more than 3 years, according to the preview button), and more than that since I really wrote down anything really personal. I figure now's as good a time as any to start again.
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It's been a year since I last posted... whoa. Lots of stuff has happened, which probably should go under a cut!

A year in a few paragraphs )

Work has been really quite busy, with the release of Windows 7 SP1 and other projects still in progress. I've sometimes gotten home around 12 midnight and fed Belle and Lillian, then collapsed in bed. Belle had a minor scare in March when she started losing weight rapidly and developed fatty liver. Fortunately, the vet and I - and other friends who sent their love, light and healing purrs/reiki - were able to reverse it, and she's made a full recovery (and gained a bit too!) She is a lot more agile now and likes climbing up on cat trees.

I recently saw The Agony and Ecstasy of Steve Jobs, which was a 2-hour monologue about Apple, Steve Jobs and conditions in the Chinese factories that produce the vast majority of consumer electronics. Some of the conditions described are literally unspeakable - 14-hour days, 7 days a week, rooms which have beds stacked to the ceiling with about 10 square feet of space, extremely low pay, lack of basic medical care, among others. I will make another post listing some of the things you can do if you believe that this situation should be changed; it's quite Apple-speciifc, but would likely work with other companies as well. [livejournal.com profile] summercomfort, have you seen this? (He started performing in the Bay Area/SF last year and came up to Seattle for a few weeks)
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I haven't posted in a while - more than 2 months. Part of that is because I haven't been good about remembering to update, but it's also because of being quite busy )

I'm leaving on a week-long vacation tonight, which will take me to Chicago, Peoria and St. Louis:

- I'll be meeting [livejournal.com profile] tanyad in Chicago and hanging out with her. While I'm there, I need to try some authentic Chicago pizza (sorry [livejournal.com profile] testing4l, but Pizz'a Chicago in San Jose is probably not the real thing) and check out the city - would you believe I've never been to Chicago before, even thouigh I've passed through O'Hare several times?
- On Friday afternoon, I'll be driving down to Peoria for the Old-Time Piano Playing Contest. It's my first time taking part, and I am a bit nervous about it, particularly since I'll have to play all my contest entries from memory! Fortunately, most of them aren't a problem since they're ragtime pieces I'm familiar with - the only one that might be difficult is Gershwin's "Someone to Watch Over Me", which is the required non-ragtime entry. The other pieces I'm performing are "Queen of Love" by Charles Hunter (who is probably more known for "Tickled to Death"), "Kitten on the Keys" by Zez Confrey, and "Swipesy Cake Walk", "Peacherine Rag" and "Maple Leaf Rag" by Scott Joplin.
- I'm meeting a friend in Carbondale on Monday, and will head back to Chicago to arrive on Monday evening. The reason is...]
- I will be taking a train to St. Louis! It's the first time I've taken a train since I took the Acela in 2007 (from Boston to New York), and it'll be nice to enjoy the countryside without having to deal with traffic or rest stops. :D
- I'll be spending an evening in St. Louis and have several places in mind to visit (thanks to some suggestions from [livejournal.com profile] reannon) before I fly out the next morning.

I'm going to miss Belle and Lillian, but I have a cat-sitter coming over to feed and play with them daily, so I hope they won't be too miffed when I return. Speaking of Lillian, I uploaded some new pictures on Flickr of her on the harness - she seems to like it more than she used to!

People and places I want to visit this year:
- [livejournal.com profile] samurai_ko and her hubby will be moving to Seattle, so I will definitely need to visit them more often.
- [livejournal.com profile] saraphina_marie and [livejournal.com profile] reannon - the best way to meet both of them would probably be at a con, but I also have an invitation to have breakfast with [livejournal.com profile] saraphina_marie at a Pfunky Griddle in Nashville. This makes me happy. :D
- I might drive to Vancouver to visit my aunts- I've been putting it off for the last 3 years, for no reason in particular, but this year is as good as any.

I'm really looking forward to the rest of this year!
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14/02/2010 12:32:59 <&basket> YUO, lava|droid?
14/02/2010 12:33:00 <PyRC> basket, bayoab, we do exchange hosting at work. *no* droid user who has called us without that data plan has been made in modern gunnery.

I also owe [livejournal.com profile] tanyad an entry with my thoughts on the iPad, and will write that up soon.
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I haven't really made any entries ("serious" or otherwise) in a while, and it's a new year, so I figured writing about the highs and lows of 2009 would be a good way to start off the new year.

2009 in review: the good and not so good )

Phew... that was quite a lot of thoughts! In no particular order, here's what I'm looking forward to in 2010:
- I'm going to take part in the Old-Time Piano Playing Contest in Peoria, IL during the Memorial Day weekend! Registration hasn't opened yet, but I fully intend to submit my entry form and get my period costume ready. I've gotten some very helpful advice from [livejournal.com profile] saraphina_marie, who happens to be a costume designer and has a degree in it! She's also a great author, by the way. :-)
- Spending more time being happy. I've spent so much time over the last few years (particularly when I was at home) trying to please other people that I've forgotten what it's like to please myself without getting material goods (though having a new Zune HD as a New Year's present to myself certainly doesn't hurt!)
- Re-discovering my social skills through karaoke and other activities. I bravely sang Lady Gaga's "Poker Face" at karaoke last week, which was certainly unexpected, but I didn't feel any shame in doing so. It's also a good way of getting to know new people, and staying in touch with friends.

I hope everyone's year will be a good one! Right now though, Lillian is kneading my bedsheet, so I think that's a signal that I should go to sleep. :)
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It's a bit slower compared to handwriting but it can recognize my writings pretty well!

I haven't tried going out with it yet but plan to sometime soon. It has a SIM card slot for 3G access too.

For some reason I've been feeling particularly tired these few days. I hope it's nothing serious.

The Semagic UI isn't very touch friendly though.

ETA (via the keyboard as I'm sleepy): Happy holidays, everyone!
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Paid/permanent members can place ads on their journals?

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...

...

I am trying to think of a good reason for this move.

At least it's an opt-in system, so most people shouldn't be affected. I do view it as another sign of LJ's slow decline into "yet another blogging site", though...
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Here's the official announcement.

Now I can finally talk about what I was working on publicly for the last year and a half :)

(edit: Fixed the link)

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